Meditation in serenity

 

    今天阳光真好，透过窗户，柔柔的，整个屋子都沉浸在温暖之中，不怪乎来过我寝室的人都说，这里真舒服~~

最近几天突然忙了起来，越发觉得像这样静静地坐在书桌前，理理思绪的时光，难能可贵。生日刚刚过了，和大家一起，这样的感觉真好。到了大四，好像很喜欢说最后一次，在华师大的最后一个生日足以让我回味良久。不过，好像猛然间发现自己理解力，反应力全面下降……生日礼物，永远是充满神秘感的东东，很喜欢打开盒子那一瞬的好奇和兴奋，也很喜欢琢磨他们的用意。fs的室长和青，最了解我的猪头～不过，阿土伯送的一罐薯片，真是让我百思不得其解，第二天才恍然大悟，好像是阿土伯种的土豆今年丰收了~~更让我觉得过意不去的是，大家K歌的时候，余奔奔点了一首《二十二》，我坐在旁边，很不在意地说了一句，好像没听过哦~~后来音乐响起，大家欢呼起来，我还在心里嘀咕是怎么了，直到室长叫我名字，这才如梦方醒，哦，偶二十二岁了……曲毕，余奔奔说，这首歌唱得不好，前几天才学的……我真是服了自己~~错误在昨天值班的时候继续上演，陆同学打电话问他的推优表是不是在老高那里，我思忖着什么推优表啊？不知道啊，回他说下周一亲自问老高吧。晚上回到寝室，想起最开始造访的好同学，可能是以前没见过我没说过话，说话时那憨憨的拘谨的样子，心里就发笑，他手里拿着什么来着？貌似是就业推荐表，陆同学莫不是问的就是这个？汗啊, 我怎么就不多问两句呢？

真的该醒醒了，长大了一岁，该变得更成熟点儿，更聪明点儿才是~~

和桔子聊天，她说以后好想有一个大家庭，我笑说她女人，想像着她和陈的全家福，两个人坐在正中，膝下子孙满堂。后来她说，不是啦，我是想好朋友们永远在一起，不要分开……我也想，可是很可能抑制不住自己年轻时候到处走走看看，经历一番的念头。不管怎么说，自己选的路就好好地走，走下去。

毕业课题昨天拿到了，也算是费了点周折，从我给老板打电话开始就觉得小小的震撼。一个电话里老板说了三句话，总共7个字。第二天，我来回花了5个小时，和老板进行了大概10分钟的谈话，给我安排了两次电话，一个会议和下学期的大致工作。其实挂了电话的时候，我就在期待，明天的谈话会怎么样，结果真不出我所料，他实在是太direct，不由得让我想起Adam曾经说过，MIT的人和常人思维方式不太一样，算是见识了，以后还会有很长的一段时间让我慢慢体会；这也让我觉得他和《美丽心灵》中的约翰.那什有几分相似，也难怪有网友评论，老板是唯一一个三次提名院士候选人却落选的人，原因在于人际关系处不好。不过，我不介意这些，相反觉得很敬佩，重学术不重虚名，这种方式也让我觉得自在，少了很多揣测的麻烦。猪头说，你以后不要变成他这样子哦，呵呵，难说啊~~不过题目着实有点变态——SAR图像数据处理。百度扫盲，结果发现一只脚迈进了航空探测，敏感专业啊，bless～

以后可能会更忙，好吧，忙吧~~一个多月的堕落生活也让我觉得厌倦，甚至不时地怀念以前连吃饭都来不及的时候，骑飞车和别人撞起来的时候，急急忙忙赶到了实验室却发现自己早到了半小时的时候……也更加怀念在华师大的点滴，看到有个同学签名档：华师大，我恨你。心里有点痛，真想建议中国法定一个感恩节。

昨天和阿莉走在路上，商量着一顿圣诞&元旦的班饭。快四年了，我们貌似还没吃过吧。要好好珍惜，这些和大家在一起最后的日子。以前曾向猪头嚷，下学期一定要陪我到处玩，一来要充分利用这张学生证，二来以后她若去了加拿大，谁陪我呢？

不管怎么说，现在大家还是在一起～～嗯，珍惜所有，用心生活。

   

Always, time outruns my capability to capture, especially when I am engaged in a heap of events. Well, when it comes to the definition on my recent business, I am wondering whether these can be described as "events", however, for me, undoubtedly the response is affirmed, for the reason that they always linger and adhere to, and sometimes even afflict me--they are examinations.

Just having disentangled from the writing examination, I have been trapped in another circle of middle term examinations. Preparation for G, has penetrated into every aspect of my quotidian life, when having meal, before going to bed, when on the ride, and even in my class. My life is replete, without any redundant space to cram anything else, including the major subjects. An incidental chance, I have browsed a sign on net: "GPA or GT, it is a problem". Of course, this going without saying problem is discombobulating every gter, and before the urgent problem and the anticipated ones in the relatively long term, I took the former, without any hesitation. Obviously,  challenges are constant. I began to be involved in tests even since the next day of the writing examination. Only one day left for me. Unfortunately, I just can not sedate myself from the excitement about the termination of composition. When I am fully conscious of how grave the matter is on that morning, I would take the test on that night. Subsequently, it is a long bunch of ellipsis. Then, what awaits for me is a hill of accumulated homework, note that I have missed, as well as test of another required course.  What's more, during the qulified endurance of time, meetings frequent. Even on the very night before the required course examination, I persuaded myself to participate in a routine conference. Until tonight, I eventually have a chance to breathe a relieved breath. Goodbye, examinations!

Simultaneously, also say hello to the coming May Day, sprightly. Here, I'd like to wish everyone a happy holiday, both those who will  couch in the room as me and those who have arranged a perfect schedule for the outgoing. To some extent, this is an absolutely pleasant and even a luxury spell belonging to me. Finally, to mention a surprise, a classmate in high school will come around SH, and we have seen each other since almost two years ago. Just as a writer whose name suddenly escapes from me, once wrote, "Changes are constant", what this period of time has branded upon both of us will soon be revealed. Anticipating~~

 

For such a long time I do not come around this place, and the same with my pals. Well, it is not exaggeratedly speaking, what I am doing now is just against the tide that almost everyone around me has curdled their enthusiasm on this kind of behavior--blog. We are too busy to be involved in this kind of things, I guess. Yet, we need words, we need something to express our emotions, and we need some time to be wasted as well. Condone me for such straightforward speaking.

 

As it stands, my impulse may be viewed as a heritage from the GRE analysis writing examination. I can not forget the depressed feeling before I compose any, I can not forget the miserable scene  brought by the ostensibly unnoticeable lapses--spelling mistakes in my first writing. At that time, I deeply feel that I am almost a pitiful girl who has lost her words. I know, practice makes perfect, but I just do not posses ample time. I am anxious, like an ant on a hot pan. There are so many things to do that render me in a dilemma do not know what to do. Never in such a awful situation before any examination.

 

Fortunately, I meet people who help me out. Here, just convey my sincerely appreciation to them. David, bz from taisha, pacifies me even in my first writing and the most impressing is that he brought me the first simile from my heart ever since I prepared for the composition, when I accomplished my first argument in the qualified time for the first time. Mama, never blames me for the poor performance and just gives me relief, encourage and confidence--we are proud of you such a daughter, do you know? And another guy from jiaotong university, that even name is not available to me. We spent that examination together as well as the time before that. Since I steped out of the station, I found myself nervous and fidgeting. Nevertheless This is a benign guy that will bring  you the blithe feeling. "Just look at the samples , what a difficulty for one to compose a 3 grade writing. Yet,en... Once, a fellow in my university who performed well and somewhat pretentious. Immediately after he took the examination, he began to spread his experience: You should compose an argument according to this way and an issue to that way......However, he took a 3." All of my uncomfort during the journey and the tightness were sent away. If I were lonely, I dare not imagine what a terrible mood I might be immersed in. Hey, can you of all feel the grateful words from me?

 

Admittedly, I am not an efficient person and for everyone who pursues a thing called perfection, I think, this is not understandable. Thus, when I am seated here, I know it will be an enduring time to spend. Of course, this does not imply that what I present here is eminent works that I am satisfied with. You need to recognize that the courage necessary to persuade myself to pose it here.

屋门虚掩着，静静地，一片狼藉。既不封博，只因思维还在飞续。却不觉悄然间，点滴流逝，已搁笔。蓦然地，有丝怅然。若不然，迸出的火花，涌出的泉水，不会消失在失却的记忆。明日结班，不想再失去心情，于是推门提笔。

众G师，后会有期，只盼异地。

众G友，此一别再会战场,一切顺利。

 

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